FMF – dream

I am back for my second post of the day!
Get me!

Basically I have like 5 free minutes….so guess what that means?!
Its five minute Friday y’all ☺
Ooh y’all I feel all American (said in the most English accent possible!)

Anyways, here we go again – joining in with Kate and crew over at http://katemotaung.com

I read this weeks prompt and literally did a little joyful dance inside ☺
I can’t wait for this!

Prompt – dream

Ready, set, go

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I dream in paper, and paint.
I dream of music and lights.
I dream in colour, I dream in black and white
I dream in glitter and sparkles

I dream of a long sandy beach, with waves lapping on the shore
Of sunflower fields

The sound of laughter and happy days.
I dream of white picket fences, and willow trees.
Of building sandcastles, and going searching for seashells.

I dream of cartwheels in the park, and trying to reach the stars on a swing.
Of chasing bubbles around the garden and hearing ‘again mummy, again’
Of teaching children how to read and ride bikes.

I dream of long walks in the woods and picking flowers.
Making daisy chains and chasing butterflies.

I dream of peace and equality
A world without suffering and pain

Of love and never ending smiles.
Of a thousand tomorrow’s and happy today’s.

Of tickle monsters and infectious laughter.
Of long, warm cuddles in snuggly blankets.

I dream of these things to be in my life, to fill my days with happiness and a grateful heart.
Take a moment and dream – what do you dream of?

‘A dream is a wish your heart makes 💜’

Stop.

What do you dream?!

Have a great weekend

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Tuesday at ten – I will never forget

Hey guys,

Oh my word let me tell you this week has been like nightmare central in château Cornes…
Its started off OK, sports day…sunshine 🌞
Then Wednesday is where everything went pear shaped (aka wrong) dropped Bella at school, came home, worked out…got a call from the school.
Yea Bella had thrown up. Joy.
One sure fire way to boost my anxiety levels is to have someone throw up….near me, around me 😭😷

So I have been at anxiety level 1000.
But she is better now and no one else seems to have caught anything yahoo!

Alrighty, unpleasantness out the way…let’s move on with this weeks Tuesday at ten.
Here again joining with karen over at finding the grace within

– I will never forget

Many things have happened in my life.
Things I would like to forget.
But they remain there to this day inside a memory box in my mind.
But if I forget all the bad that has happened how can I learn from my experience?

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The great thing about memories no matter how unpleasant they teach you something important.

Being bullied as a freckled, redheaded teen has taught me to be strong and to love myself.
Not everyone is going to like me – but also that generally you aren’t being picked on because you are an awful person, but the opposite.
Sure it took me a long time to get to a place where I could honestly say to myself ‘do you know what you are freaking awesome!’ – in fact some days I don’t feel it (who doesn’t right?)

But if I forget how I was made to feel how can I help others with my words and memories to feel good about themselves after being bullied.

Its one thing I would love to forget – to be able to shove those memories out of my mind and throw them away would be awesome.
But my experience, and how it made me feel can give me the ability to reach out to those who suffer this pain on an almost daily basis, from friends, family members or strangers.

To be able to share this with others is a wonderful thing.

I will never forget where I have come from, where I have been or what I have experienced.
I will move forward – but not forget.
My memories will help through my journey and help others through theirs.

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Brain fuzz

Hey there lovelies,

So I have been a tiny bit AWOL these last few days, mainly due to the pressures of everyday life piling onto my shoulders…but I am not going to go into that right now!
So consider this my brain fuzz day!

I thought I would play a little ‘what I am doing right now’ + my finds for this week online…mainly because I just can’t my brain working for any intense posts right now ☺

Charlotte is currently –

Watching –
I must admit I am a bit of a Netflix addict…and I am loving the box sets on there ☺ I have started re watching – yes re watching 90210 (what I like it…don’t judge me!) and I have begun watching Sherlock… and I can understand why people love it so much…its awesome!

Wearing –
Sunburn! Yea clever clogs over here decided to go to Bella’s sports day minus suntan lotion…so hello lobster skin! You would think that having pale skin for 29 years and burning when I even think about sunshine…that my brain would tell me to wear lotion, but nooo! It finds amusement in my pain!

Reading –
Oh man I am lucky to get the chance to read a book! I have 3 new books…waiting to be read…this never happens 😔

Doing –
At this second watching Robson Green extreme fishing – on Saturday I started making some baby shoes for a friend

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I tell you what the wonders of YouTube never cease – if I read the pattern it wouldn’t look remotely like a shoe..however watching someone make it really helps.
Also I have just started back on my journey to feel healthier in myself – so I am trying to do pilates 5 times a week (if I can)

Alright that’s enough about me.
Let’s move swiftly on to a little collage I made of Bella’s first sports day

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She did so good, I was really proud of her.
She did the sack race – which I think is her forte – she didn’t fall once…pretty sure I would have tripped over just trying to get into the sack lol!
However her trousers kept falling down…so we had to do a quick change! Its not my fault she has no waist ☺

Alright, right now I have another blog crush – say hello to an absolutely incredible, inspirational soul – rashae
She is another kindred spirit I have found in the social media world.
A recent post of hers can be found here its a very important topic – rape culture. I urge you to read it, this girl is going to change lives.

Blog crush number 2 – Chantelle – I have spoken of her before, I just love her. That’s it. Don’t need anymore explanation.
She has done a couple of really delicious recipe posts… I mean seriously drooling going on! However, I am going to share this one here where she talks about what she has learned in her life – right on the nose for sure ☺

You all know how much I love Pinterest right?!
Well I thought today was the day to go looking for a new quote cushion for our sofa…what do we think?

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Sometimes a fun quote is the best way to go! ☺
I particularly like the irony one, made me laugh out loud!

Before I turn in, I will tell you one thing I have been stressing over –
Alright so last year, about September time – I mentioned to our doctor about a lump behind Ariana’s ear – he thought it was a swollen lymph node, because she had a bad scalp. Gave her some medicated shampoo and sent us on our way.
Its now June – its still there. So we have an appointment to see paediatrics in hospital, in case its a cyst. But my mind has a habit of taking me to worst case scenarios – so I am freaking out thinking the worst you know?!
But in my heart I am positive she will be fine, but as her mum I just can’t help worrying.
Her appointment is next Wednesday so I will keep you posted ☺

Have yourselves a great day/night

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FMF – fear

Hey there!
Happy Friday friends ☺

Its that wonderful part of the week where the weekend is nigh, and where I join in with the lovely folks at five minute Friday.

A part of the day where bloggers from around the world take five minutes to write on a given topic.

So I am going to dive right in –
This weeks topic is fear – its a biggie!

Ready, set, go!

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When I think of fear, I think about a dark cloud inside of me.
That cloud that stops me from following my dreams.
Telling me I am not good enough.
I look in the mirror, and my mind tells me I am never going to be enough.

But I am facing my fear daily.

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I am learning not to let my fears, of which there are so many take over me.
Every day I get a little bit closer to locking my fears in a box and throwing them off a cliff face (hypothetically speaking)
Trying to conquer a fear is no mean feat – I have feared never being good enough since I was a young girl.
I am now 29. Its still takes me over to this day.

But fear is nothing without a fire beneath it.
If we don’t fuel the fire, the fear will disappear.

I am no longer afraid to be myself, I just need to work on seeking everyone’s approval.
This my affirmation for not being afraid to be myself

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So let’s face our fears head on everyday.
Stare it in the eye and say ‘do you know what…you are not going to rule me…not today…not ever’

I know you can do it – rule your fear. Don’t let it rule you.

Stop.

I have written a great deal on fear before, and I must admit that its a really interesting subject.
There are a lot of different takes and thoughts on the word fear.
But here are my five minutes – and I look forward to reading peoples thoughts on this topic.

Have a great day!

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Tuesday at ten – I find strength in..

Hey guys,

Happy Wednesday ☺

Its that time of the week again – where I join in with the lovely folks over at the Tuesday at ten link up…thank you Karen

So here goes with this weeks prompt – I find strength in…

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I find strength in Jehovah.

Before studying the bible (2008) and finally being baptised in 2010, I never felt strong.
I struggled deeply with depression and had very bad patches of self harming.
My mind would tell me that I was weak.
Perhaps it was right, because I let my mind overrule me.
I was in a pretty bad place –

But then in 2008, after a pretty bad time with self harming – I happened to bump into a group of Jehovah’s witnesses on their ministry.
I know that it was because of Jehovah that I met them and took up a bible study.
He gave me the strength to move past what I had been taught about the witnesses – and to study because it was what I wanted.
Its still a daily struggle, but I have faith that Jehovah will help me.

Even after suffering a devastating miscarriage in 2009, Jehovah was still there for me.
Giving me so much strength. The strength to leave the house. The strength to go back to the meetings. The strength to realise that I will see my baby again.
Also the strength to stay at Jehovah’s side.
I knew that Jehovah is there for me.
Thanks to my faith in Jehovah he has blessed me with my 3 children.

Growing up in a catholic home – it took a lot of strength to become a Jehovah’s witness. But I have prayer and Jehovah’s holy spirit to thank for that.

Jehovah has impacted my life so much, for this I am so grateful.
He gives me so much strength through his word its incredible.

Some of my favourite scriptures that help me with my strength –

Phil 4:13 – for all things I have strength through the one who gives me power.

Psalms 29:11 – Jehovah will give strength to his people, Jehovah will bless his people with peace

Psalms 18:2 – Jehovah is my crag and my stronghold and the one who rescues me, my god is my rock in whom I take refuge.

He gives me strength. With Jehovah in my life how could I possibly feel weak anymore.

I get my daily strength from Jehovah and for this I am deeply grateful.

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