Hey there loves.
This week was mental health awareness day, and I wanted to write a post on it – but unfortunately Ariana has been really ill and it stressed me out a great deal.
Which unfortunately made my anxiety levels pretty high.
Tuesday was a particularly bad day for me.
So I kind of shut myself off, you know.
I am not going to say I am entirely out if it because I am not – in fact I even ordered a good delivery because I literally didn’t want to immerse myself in a crowd of people.
Ironically I cut myself off from people – but then I feel alone.
It’s a horrible, vicious circle.
As Ellis Grey once said – the carousel never stops turning.
Incredibly accurate words.
I have been suffering this way for years.
It’s not as simple as being able to switch of my depression.
Mental health is not as simple as using an on/off switch.
It’s easy enough to paint on the smile – I do it everyday.
But then the problem I find is the painted smile is enough to make a person believe that you are just having a ‘bad’ day.
That because I have a family and children I have nothing to be depressed about.
Because apparently if you have these things – a husband, a home, children – then I have no reason to be depressed.
I sometimes wish it were that simple.
But it’s not.
It is an ongoing battle.
My mind is fighting daily with my thoughts. Thoughts of not being good enough, of being a waste of space.
I am not the only one who fights the inner struggle.
Which I guess is the point here.
You can walk by a person on the street who is completely put together – but you don’t know what is going on inside.
We must never judge on appearance alone –
Anyone can suffer from depression and anxiety.
You don’t have to have had a bad childhood or a traumatic past to suffer.
I always try to look at people with kindness and to never assume anything about them
Never judge a book by it’s cover yes?!
The other thing is the stigma surrounding mental health.
People hear the word ‘depression’ and immediately roll their eyes and brush it off.
Because it isn’t an illness right?!
It is a debilitating illness.
And sometimes fatal.
It is that painful that some suffers take to suicide in order to end their pain.
We need to break the stigma surrounding this illness – try to help save lives.
Reach out and help those who are in pain.
No matter how many times i say I am fine, I am not.
If someone reached out I would grab on with both hands and never let go.
Having someone say “it’s OK I am here for you” is an incredible thing.
If you know someone, anyone who suffers
Help them, reach out, be their person.
Let’s break the stigma.